My Heart

Sometimes I evaluate myself and think I'm so weird compared to worldly standards! When someone needs help, whether that help is seen or unseen, I can never say no to helping them! I have a overly giving heart and this probably causes me to get taken advantage of more than I realize but you know what?? Most of the time it honestly doesn't bother me. I love being able to help someone in whatever way, fashion or form! I don't think about how I would benefit from helping in that situation; my focus is always on benefiting that person. That being said, sometimes you can't always help someone and them know about it. I'm going to share a perfect example from my senior year of high school, not to toot my own horn but to show you that you don't always need recognition. There was this family who was more on the poorer side. They weren't going to have the money to buy their daughter a nice homecoming dress and their son a nice button-down shirt for homecoming ceremonies, so I decided that I would provide it for them. I left the clothes in their lockers without a note or anything because quite honestly I wasn't sure how they were going to react. There had been some problems with the mom earlier in the school year, and I honestly was a little worried that the mother would cause a big ruckus about it and accuse me of doing something wrong. I was sitting in the high school office one day, with the secretary, when the mother came in and you could tell that she had gratitude written all over her face. She started talking to the secretary, who knew what I had done, and was saying how kind it was of someone to do that and she asked her if she had done it? The secretary said,"No, but it sounds like someone just wanted to do something nice for you guys." To this day, the mother is still convinced that the secretary did it, and I am perfectly okay with that. I honestly don't want her to know it was me. I prefer to be that blessing in disguise. And just so you know, by being that disguised blessing, I was blessed more than I ever knew I would be.