Spiritual Healing

Hey guys, just wanted to share a little about part of my spring break. I spent a lot of time alone on my spring break, both at home and at work. At first I was feelin' a little sorry for myself and lonely not gonna lie but then I realized I had not been putting my focus in the right place for quite a while now. I haven't been giving things to God they way I'm supposed to. I would hold on to a little piece of it like I could control it even when I would say I give it all to you God. Totally hypocritical of me I know. So I decided with God's help that I was going to get myself turned back around on to his path. And let me say, deciding this and sticking to it, I felt like I was getting attacked right and left by the devil. It has been a pretty rough week but I feel like I am  prevailing slowly with God by my side. I am going to take a sentence from my devotional Jesus Calling by Sarah Young because it explains exactly what I was feeling. "Anxiety wraps you up in yourself, trapping you in your own thoughts." This is exactly what I allowed myself to do, trap myself in my own thoughts. It is never more prevalent what's on your heart than when you spend lots of time by yourself and your thoughts start to roam. I allowed myself to worry about things that were happening and things that had not even happened yet. The other night I literally felt like I was having an anxiety attack in the shower. So I just sat down with the shower still running and gave it all up to God. We Won't Be Shaken by Building 429 was playing over the IPod stereo and it could not have been playing at a better time. This part of the lyrics especially touched me:

You know my every longing

You've heard my every prayer

You've held me in my weakness

Cause you are always there

So I'll stand in full surrender

It's your way and not my own

My mind is set on nothing less

Than you and you alone

I will not be moved oh

Whatever will come my way

Through fire or pouring rain

We won't be shaken

No we won't be shaken

Whatever tomorrow brings

Together we'll rise and sing

That we won't be shaken

Here's the link to listen to the song: We Won't Be Shaken by Building 429

So after that I really started getting into my Bible and focusing on my devotional, not just going through the motions of reading it because I felt like I had to. I have been listening to Christian music when I'm driving, working, or just have some down time because it has been helping me to put my focus back on God. Some of the ones that have been on repeat on the IPod this week are: Even If by Kutless, You Are I Am by MercyMe, Need You Now by Plumb, & Strong Tower by Kutless. 


Now when I say it was a rough week, I wasn't kidding. I had to fix a co-workers mistake at work that was a pretty big boo-boo and then after that happened one of my bosses asked me to come work on the only Saturday I have off this month, which is when my co-worker was supposed to work, because they would be talking to my co-worker about something when she came in on Tuesday and I have my suspicions on what is going to happen with her. So if any of you are reading this, say a little prayer that this situation will work out the way God intended it to. And then I found out one of my sweet family members had passed away. I didn't find out about it in time though to get off work to go to his funeral though so I think I'll be going for a drive this week to go put some flowers on his and my dad's grave. And then there was just that little stuff that tries to work its way in and bug you.

Even though it was a rough week, I am so so grateful for it because 

it made me stronger in my walk with Christ and it was just the 

awakening I needed and was a true spiritual healing for me.


One of the devotionals that I read this week really touched my 

heart so I'm going to share it with you...

"It is good that you recognize your weakness. That keeps you 

looking to Me, your Strength. Abundant life is not necessarily 

health and wealth; it is living in continual dependence on Me. 

Instead of trying to fit this day into a preconceived mold, relax and 

be on the lookout for what I am doing. This mind-set will free you 

to enjoy Me and to find what I have planned for you to do. This is 

far better than trying to make things go according to your own plan. 

Don't take yourself so seriously. Lighten up and laugh with Me. 

You have Me on your side, so what are you worried about? I can 

equip you to do absolutely anything, as long as it is My will. The 

more difficult your day, the more I yearn to help you. Anxiety 

wraps you up in yourself, trapping you in your own thoughts. When 

you look to Me and whisper My Name, you break free and receive 

My help. Focus on Me, and you will find Peace in My Presence."

-"I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am 

ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses 

inner strength in me; I am self-sufficient in Christ's sufficiency].

--Philippians 4:13

-"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up 

the bones."

--Proverbs 17:22